Highs and Lows - What's with the sad faces?

Dad's comments.

Mum and I have been talking lately about how Felix has a good skill of doing things at ideal moments. Sometimes he does things which cheer us up, wake us up or to just let us know he's not happy with something. The most magical moments we've shared with Felix are usually after we've received shocking news and the scariest moments we've had are when we've been over confident and forget that he's still shouldn't be born.

Part 1

"What's with the sad faces?"

In the first week of Felix's life, in front of Mum and Nana, Felix suffered a Pulmonary Hemorrhage (bleeding in the lungs). Mum and Nana were asked to leave the room and I received a phone call from Nana asking me to come to the ward. When I arrived all I could see through the windows were the dreaded white screens and far too may people surrounding his incubator. When he was stable, he had to have blood transfusions and various ultra sound scans. I believe all premature babies have a brain scan at some point, but Felix definitely needed one after this episode.

After having his scan, we were asked to enter a private room decorated like a living room and to take a seat on a comfortable sofa. This wasn't normal. Felix had suffered a bleed in the brain. The outcomes were explained to us and we were informed that a further scan needed to be done the following week to determine the severity; Grade 1 being minimal, Grade 4 being worst case. We were upset but knew that he was alive so we stayed positive. The next scan the following week highlighted the extent of the problem, Felix had a Grade 4 bleed on the right side of his brain and a grade 2/3 on his left side. I can't really express how we felt, but the first thing we did was to go and see Felix. Holding hands we both walked down the bright corridors to his ward, we lifted his incubator cover and saw something that we had never seen before. Felix had his eyes open for the first time and he was smiling at us, looking at us as if saying "What's with the sad faces?"

In an instant we had completely forgot what was just said. Felix looked amazing. We were overwhelmed with happiness and all negative thoughts vanished in an instant. Felix is here, he's breathing, smiling and looking straight at us.